All the things I said

Yesterday is gone. I can't get back that night. It is funny how an argument can bring out the worst in a couple. That we get so deep in our anger and ego; forget to that in this relationship we need to treat each well.

So now I have to ask myself why I chose to lash out in anger at my spouse? All the hard work that we've been working toward these last few weeks. Has gone to waste with the fight we had yesterday.

I lashed out at him not taking the time to cool off. To distance myself from my emotions. I have to do better than that. Lashing out at him is not cool.

Deep breath.

Though he said he forgives me, I can't forgive myself.

Exhale.

So in order to stop this, I need to be mindful of what I say. For there might come a day where there won't be someone there to hear me say it.

3:02 a.m.

I lean into his cheek.
Mumbles are what I hear and feel.
"I love you" He says.

Me who has to tease.
Mentions that.
Sleep makes it blurry.

An like before,
he storms and turns.
I take his storm and send it
back to him.

I don't have shelter from what the storm brings.
Again he lulls into sleep.
He'll dream.
Thinking she tried to make a liar of me.
"I love you" He said.


Words by S.T. Green