Today was good. Spent the day pretending that I was doing things really great and stuffs. Wonderful day dreams about things and people that don't matter and trying to out do them.
Later, my husband comes home. Hugging and kissing. smiling at each other with love. We sit down and then he gets a message from someone. His sister is formally engaged. I stop and want to say something nice, but that is not what comes out of my mouth. We joke about how that they are not talking to each other. Also of how when siblings don't get along how they should work it out. Then it hits me.
I'm jealous. Just plain an simply. There is not much I can do to sugar coat this. Reeling in my head is the fact that we were never engaged. That we just got married. An that we did sow or show truly what is there between us.
The beautiful irony is how I understand how hurt his family is or was. People say they have moved on, but they are waiting for the shoe, like everyone waits.
Later, my husband comes home. Hugging and kissing. smiling at each other with love. We sit down and then he gets a message from someone. His sister is formally engaged. I stop and want to say something nice, but that is not what comes out of my mouth. We joke about how that they are not talking to each other. Also of how when siblings don't get along how they should work it out. Then it hits me.
I'm jealous. Just plain an simply. There is not much I can do to sugar coat this. Reeling in my head is the fact that we were never engaged. That we just got married. An that we did sow or show truly what is there between us.
The beautiful irony is how I understand how hurt his family is or was. People say they have moved on, but they are waiting for the shoe, like everyone waits.
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