Boys for Pele is one of my favorite albums for when I want to let something out.
I know what is bothering me. I can't understand my mother in law. I tell myself that this is my husbands mother and that she is looking out for the interest of her son only. Though her actions are bugging me. There is so much that I need to say like how she has hurt my feelings and that she is wrong. Some of this is what I am perceiving from her actions and words. Though I know only that people change and there is so much in this. The part which bothers me is why do I care so much? I know that I am married to her son, but that should be all. Instead I have his family in my heart and part of my mind. Am I upset that she offended me or is this all because I disappointed someone who I did know that I shouldn't disappoint. Hell if I know right now.
Father Lucifer
Track 3 on the CD Boys for Pele and now I remember those night diving into my mind and all the thoughts that came with them. For some reason I could just sink while Tori sang " Father Lucifer you never looked so sane."
Speaking of sanity.... I seem to be losing my grip with part of it. For my Pisces self is reeling from the fact that lots is happening. I should be enjoying myself: new job( albeit somewhat illegal), husband( he loves me, though can't understand why I am so moody sometimes or dreamy.) and not to mention living in a foreign country( Yays! Korea). Though I feel out of touch with something and wondering if I need to get away for a bit. Take a Holiday, but what am I taking it for and from? Hell if I know at this moment. Much of what I want is filled in, though I want to jump from the roof. I feel bi-polar and strange, but I am not bi-polar and I am very familiar.
Marianne
Track 5: Speaks volumes about love and all the people who are in our lives.
For some reason Tori voice is amazing while she sings of her friend who killed herself. There is this light but bold sadness about the events. Parts of Marianne is about memories and thoughts.
"Just having thoughts of Marianne"
"Caught a light sneeze" ....Track 6 is interesting for all of its glory. Well this is where haunting vocals blend with the piano and back-up. For tonight I am done. I decide to change the list to a track I love to hear "Angie" which is a cover from the Rolling Stones.
I know what is bothering me. I can't understand my mother in law. I tell myself that this is my husbands mother and that she is looking out for the interest of her son only. Though her actions are bugging me. There is so much that I need to say like how she has hurt my feelings and that she is wrong. Some of this is what I am perceiving from her actions and words. Though I know only that people change and there is so much in this. The part which bothers me is why do I care so much? I know that I am married to her son, but that should be all. Instead I have his family in my heart and part of my mind. Am I upset that she offended me or is this all because I disappointed someone who I did know that I shouldn't disappoint. Hell if I know right now.
Father Lucifer
Track 3 on the CD Boys for Pele and now I remember those night diving into my mind and all the thoughts that came with them. For some reason I could just sink while Tori sang " Father Lucifer you never looked so sane."
Speaking of sanity.... I seem to be losing my grip with part of it. For my Pisces self is reeling from the fact that lots is happening. I should be enjoying myself: new job( albeit somewhat illegal), husband( he loves me, though can't understand why I am so moody sometimes or dreamy.) and not to mention living in a foreign country( Yays! Korea). Though I feel out of touch with something and wondering if I need to get away for a bit. Take a Holiday, but what am I taking it for and from? Hell if I know at this moment. Much of what I want is filled in, though I want to jump from the roof. I feel bi-polar and strange, but I am not bi-polar and I am very familiar.
Marianne
Track 5: Speaks volumes about love and all the people who are in our lives.
For some reason Tori voice is amazing while she sings of her friend who killed herself. There is this light but bold sadness about the events. Parts of Marianne is about memories and thoughts.
"Just having thoughts of Marianne"
"Caught a light sneeze" ....Track 6 is interesting for all of its glory. Well this is where haunting vocals blend with the piano and back-up. For tonight I am done. I decide to change the list to a track I love to hear "Angie" which is a cover from the Rolling Stones.
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