Up in the air.

There is a moment when you won't let people do the things they do anymore.

Right now is that moment.

I noticed that many times, people didn't just ignore me or push me to the side.

That it was because I let them.

With that in mind, I now take the time to not let people do that any longer.

I feel like things have been up in the air with many people in my life. An as I land back down,

to a place of being mentally settled.

I refuse to let people get me to the place where I am bothered. Nor will I continue with where

things have gone.

For instance the fact that people think I can be used, or set aside because of something small.

I will not reach out anymore, nor will I bow and kiss the gold ring.

When it comes to my family, I will speak up more about what sideways comments that are either mentioned or said directly.

I will not let them place me in place, where I am robbed of my personal power. Or made to think I am not good enough.

With regards to my in-laws, this is something that I will be dealing with for the rest of my life.
This is the one thing that I don't think will change over night.  I hate having to rely on them for anything. An while rude things were said on both sides, I will work toward the bettering of them.
I know that neither of them truly see me as the person for their son, but were still together.
 An I will have to work at making sure not to further disappoint them more than what I have.
I know that their not my parents, but I will have to understand I am not their family. Yet a person who makes up their extended family.

An to myself most of all, we will work toward making it better. Mentally and spiritually.